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10th and final day of the cleanse!  Feel good….but the hardest part is next.  Although I haven’t been consuming anything, I still feel that after this cleanse I have more energy and I don’t feel sluggish.  Now it’s just a matter of getting in to a new routine and sticking with it.

I went grocery shopping today and prepared some food for the first week but I officially suck at shopping.  Definitely forgot to grab a few things. I definitely kept thinking in my head “I can have it, but I DON’T want it” as I walked through the grocery store.  There’s just so much shit out there and as delicious as it may be, my eyes have been opened to what they feed us.  It’s going to be hard to reprogram my body to not crave those things, but I’m up for the challenge.

I find it amazing that someone who will claim to care about your well being tries so hard to get you to change, but what people don’t understand is that you can’t force change.  It’s best to voice your concerns as opposed to degrade someone and look at them negatively because they aren’t making changes that you think they should make.  My life isn’t about the changes others want me to make….the key words there are “my life”.  The more you try to force me to change, the less likely I am to do so.

I truly am enjoying learning new things on this adventure so far, I feel very passionate about the direction I’m heading and I feel like a year from today I’m going to be a completely different person from the inside out.  I’ve always said I don’t feel 28 and I think that’s more so in my personality, but I truly can’t wait to physically feel different.

I’m definitely sick of being in doors, I can’t wait to take advantage of the weather and get out more.  I’m hoping to find all sorts of ways to get out more and do more things and get some natural vitamin D in me.

I’m not sure if I’ll be doing a daily update from here on out, but I’ll definitely try.  Thanks for all the support thus far and I hope some people have re-evaluated what they are doing and are open to trying new things.

I’d love to meet up with people and talk more about all of this, so feel free to let me know what you’re up to or what things you might want to improve and we can work on it together!

Yesterday was officially day 9, day 8 on the go-go juice.  Not much too report, definitely releasing a lot of toxins out of my body.  I’m excited to start the next to stages of this project, 1. the food, 2. the workout.

Got outside for a couple hours and threw the football around with the old man, tried to get a little vitamin D in me from the sun. Definitely drained me and I passed out around 6, slept for a few hours and then fell asleep again at midnight for the rest of the night.

I still need to figure out what kind of things I’ll be doing for breakfast, I have a bad habit of just getting out of bed and running out of the house as quickly as possible.

I am getting a bit bored of being at home so I’m going to always make a conscience effort to get out more and definitely spend more time out in the sun.

I need  a change of pace and just change in general, I’m going to start rearranging my place.  I really just want to move forward from the last year in my life.  I’m grateful for some of the advice I received from my dad.  It’s still hard to not think about good memories, but at the same time this person in your life did questionable and shady things.  Regardless of the good, you have to realize that someone still put you in a shitty situation and that shows their true character.  We have a choice as to who we surround ourselves with and some people just don’t deserve to be in our lives based on how they treat us.

I know she can’t understand why it is that I never want to see her or speak to her again and she holds on to this  hope for the future, but I’m not stupid, I no longer believe anything she says or does.  I haven’t even spoken to her for a while so I’m not too worried about it.  You start to realize some people just crave attention, so she’ll just find some other guy to fall for the nonsense and she doesn’t realize that b/c she does that, it makes me realize everything she claimed to be special, isn’t special at all.

Some people live in their own little world and can’t admit they have issues and need to improve certain things about them self.  I was by no means perfect and I’m not happy about the person I was becoming b/c of the anger I was being filled up with due to her actions.

I don’t think I’ll ever forgive her for ruining our relationship and not caring enough to make changes, but I’m letting go of the anger and that’s important for my own sake.  I’ll never feel the same about this person but I’m hopeful that within the next month this whole thing will be an after thought and I’ll be another month in to be being a better person.

She’ll realize her loss soon enough, but this whole journey is about moving forward, not backwards and I don’t plan on making the same mistakes as my past.

So with that said, I don’t want to think or talk about the past anymore.

Go Bulls!

So today is day 3 without eating anything and day 2 of drinking my special “go-go” juice (Shultzie will love that reference).  I’ll have to admit that I didn’t look forward at this and realize that essentially I’d be torturing myself. On the other hand it’s humbling and eye opening. It’s amazing how many temptations we have in our lives on a daily basis and the amount of money that companies spend on marketing and pushing things.  It’s like every road you drive down is littered with fast food restaurants, the convenient, quick, and easy lifestyle isn’t so convenient when you think about.  I’ve fallen victim to it for years, I’d work 12 hours and not eat all day until I couldn’t take it anymore and it was so easy to stop off at the first place you see and get a “biggie sized” dose of a few days off your life. But it’s on us as humans to care enough to make the right choices.  Some of us are blessed and can’t put on a pound…but we also forget at times that regardless of what you look like and if you can or cannot put on weight, our insides are what make us tick.  Regardless of how you appear, your internal make up could be just as bad as someone twice your size.  Too often we forget that anyone can suffer from any ailment at any given time if you don’t properly take care of yourself.

It’s hard to make the right choice and the smart choice every day.  We live in a world that simplifies everything for us that we often forget to take a step back and make the choice that will be best for us versus what’s easiest for us.

Regardless of the different feelings, pains, and changes I’m having inside my body right now, it’s been humbling and inspiring to hear from several people telling me that they are inspired by my goal.  There has definitely been moments where I’ve wavered on my dedication, but I’m glad I put myself out there for this and made it known what I’m trying to achieve because without fail, something keeps coming along to remind me that I can’t give up and need to push forward.  It’s going to be a long road ahead.

Tomorrow is officially the half way point and should be interesting.   I’m going to post the actual concoction I’m drinking tomorrow. I think most people have probably heard of it, but for those of you that haven’t I’ll post it.   I recommend putting yourself through this if you want to really test your will and clear out your system, but for a more regular and easier to accomplish cleanse, there are some other alternatives like a 3 day wheat grass cleanse.

Thanks again to everyone who has shown me support and please continue to share so that we can all hopefully inspire others to improve their life.  We’re no good if we can’t be our best for the people we love and care about.

Yesterday and today were day 2 and 3 of the cleanse. All is well…hopefully it’s true that after day 3 you no longer have cravings. I do have a wicked headache and I’m pretty tired, but I’m guessing that’s expected. I slept a lot unexpectedly this weekend, that may or may not be a good thing, not sure yet.

We’ll see how this cleanse goes during the week, 7 days to go.

Need to start figuring out the diet as well as starting to get in to an exercise routine. I know I definitely want to clear out my second bedroom so I can work the punching bag again regularly. Very good stress reliever! I need that more than ever….

Day one wasn’t easy. It consisted of only fruit and water….I think I may have eaten more fruit yesterday than I have in the last year. But I surpassed some good tests. In the morning I had a meeting with my dad at a breakfast place and resisted ordering anything else but the fruit plate and later in the day I was tempted by a smorgasbord of smells attacking my nose while purchasing some fruit at the local Dominick’s. I was definitely drained by 4pm and took a nap when I got home and just stayed in to do some things around the house.

I appreciate the support I received in the first day, whether it be through facebook, the blog, or via text. I think I realized from day one that it’s not going to be easy, but no one ever said life was easy. Normally I would have given in to temptations but I was able to look past them and realize I can’t just say “I’ll start after the weekend” or “I’ll give it one more day”. One more day turns in to another week and then another month and so on.

Today is day 2 and consists of only orange juice…..not sure how this one is going to play out. But I woke up this morning feeling nice and refreshed. I’m about to head out and get a citrus juicer to tackle the bulk of the cleanse, that should be interesting in itself and by interesting, I mean me actually juicing lemons…

Please keep sharing your ideas and thoughts with me, I greatly appreciate it.